Emotionally unstable.

It has been weird what my mind has been thinking lately. Not to say, my feelings. Wasn't able to get to sleep easily last night. My eyes were tired, yet my mind was awake. I still prefer popping pills before sleeping; I don't mean sleeping pills, I mean drowsy medicine that I took when I'm sick. Have a lot of thoughts, but I guess it's useless to pen down afterall. Been feeling down since the start of school? Then, I think it's been a month or so. Nothing seems to interest me, even shopping isn't that great than before.

Being sick the whole week was kinda good, don't have to eat so much and still not hungry at all. But, I have cravings on sweet desserts. Now, 'am craving for Japanese Soft Serve Ice Cream that I had on Tuesday with girlfriends, Jiajing and Carol at Azabu Sabo (Central). Initially, they wanted to eat Mr. Curry but it was closed for 3 hrs for their meeting. -.- What a waste of resources. Oh well, at least I had my soft serve. Yums!

Ytd was Hari Raya Haji and fortunately, Dear din have to do guard duty and was able to book out on Thursday night. (: 3 days rest for him, he is definitely happy. Oh well, a little more time with him too.

And, he's here! Ciaos~

Where's my direction?

I finally visited the doctor last Friday, I was nearly dead due to the persistent coughs. Had medicine and was drowsy the whole weekends, I kept sleeping like a pig. Did practically nothing at all!

Accompanied my dearest on Saturday and had to send him off ytd night. DOUBLE sad face ):): Sigh. On a lighter note, Hari Raya holiday is this Friday! Pray that he doesn't get Guard Duty, pls!

School has never been more mundane than ever. Lessons till 12 today. Cooked porridge accompanied with canned peanuts. Now, sitting in front of my desk and listening to the clock ticking. Nothing seems to motivate me to start on my sch work. I need a break.

Part of me is lonely, the other part is lost. I guess I'm sick love sick. My energy is drained from missing you.

Honey, when are you coming home?

Love sick.

37.7 degrees; mild fever, bad coughs but still surviving.

For the past 3 months, I was sick 4 times including this time. I have no idea where I got this nasty virus from. Probably the weather is one of the factors. Still, refuse to visit the $$-sucker doctors.

Rainy days, is Tekong too?

School has been getting from interesting to still-listening-b'cos-no-choice to now, shutting-ears-and-not-care. Haven't been doing tutorials. Moody+Sick=Not touching tutorials at all.

Ytd had yummy Salmon Sashimi and bento at Plaza Sing with Girlies. Fulfilled my cravings. *happy kid*

Today, went to Northpoint with Zoe and Jovena to have porridge at Mayim. Actually, it isn't that bad, maybe I just couldn't taste much because of my sickness.

"Dear, how are you? Are you doing fine? I've been reminiscing our dating moments before you go for army. I miss those days. NS, NS, end quickly pls. I just want you to be by my side. I miss you so much!" -Baby.

Mood: Down; -ignore me-

Eww. My hair smells sickish. It's probably the lingering smell of Liese Dye. It stinks, seriously! But, the colour turns out well surprisingly.

I wonder why people with different frequency just can't clique together! Don't say clique, just communicating can be so difficult. I appreciate a reply than being a silent stone. Well, I better not say much here.

As moody as ever, I reckon my moodswing's here for a visit. Blasting 我的快樂 by 錦繡二重唱 (one of the theme songs in 命中注定我爱你) in my ears and walking along the empty streets, for that instance, my emotions just went with the song. I had lost the ability to control my emotion.

I'm moving on to the 3rd week of school. Coming back to school was a torture to think of yet-to-do tutorials, but still, girlfriends are great companies! The fact that I haven't been doing tutorials, I am still tired all day long. I have no idea where I've spent my energy on. Besides having meals with girlfriends on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays. Let's rewind:

2/11 (Mon) - Ajisen @ Bugis Junction with Zoe and Jiajing
4/11 (Wed) - Mos Burger @ Cwp with Zoe
6/11 (Fri) - Baked mini pizzas @ Zoe's house with Syl and Jovena (of cos' Zoe's there!)

9/11 (Mon) - Lunch @ AMK Hub Foodcourt (Fried Fish Soup) with Zoe and Jovena, then down to do last session of facial.
11/11 (Wed) - Long long long belated birthday treat for Zoe @ Kim Gary HK Cafe & Haagen Dazs (VivoCity) together with Rachel, Syl and Jovena

13/11 (Fri) - With the plan of doing tutorials in the afternoon was ruined, instead I had Ajisen Lunch @ Cwp with Zoe and Jovena instead. We chatted for such a long time that we spent the whole afternoon in Cwp and I went home at 6pm.
14/11 (Sat) - Had lunch with Dear at Bachmann Japanese Restaurant @ Tampines 1 and caught a movie "2012" at Century Square after he booked out, the movie lasted 2 hrs 30 mins. Though not asleep, felt tired in the middle of the show.

16/11 (Mon) - Today, I finally had some time to blog and slack at home. Came back from lunch @ AMK Hub again.

I don't seem to get enough rest. Lost the direction of my life. I'm feeling empty. Let me be, I'll be fine then.

Changed my hairstyle recently and am getting used to it. As often when I look at my reflection, I still hate my current hairstyle. I supposed I'm going to let it grow while leaving it as it is.

Specs broken, wanted to do a new one. Chosen but decide to change my mind and use the spare one at home. Sorry for the wasted time, perhaps some other day. Fickled-minded me.


What am I looking forward to?
I just need a nap.

Stay with me, will you?

5th Anniversary.

IPP ended. Though a sigh of relief, yet felt a little 舍不得 during the last day. Supposedly, the last day should be quite relaxing, but I knocked off 20 mins later than my usual time. Afternoon past by so quickly that I couldn't finish my work on time to hand it over back to my supervisor. Had farewell lunch at Hoshi Restaurant with 6 other colleagues. Bought 'Thank you' cards for supervisor and another one for all my HR colleagues to thank them for their guidance these 10 weeks. I learnt a lot from them and I must say they are really nice people. All the best, my Creative colleagues. Shall keep in touch. (: Next KTV session!

31 October 09 was our 5th Anniversary! Half a decade had past, we've grown, our love has grown as well. Future is unpredictable, however, I sense this year might be a difficult year for us. Nevertheless, I'll hold on tight during stormy weathers and cherish every single moment that we have. No matter how things go in the future, I just wanna say, "I guess with my current English standard, no other words than 'I love you' can describe my feelings for you. Thanks for everything. Even your slightest love for me touches my heart."

Happy 5th Anniversary, my Dear.

Monday had my credit-Deepavali leave. Shopping with my girlfriend, ZOE! The aftermath of shopping at 2 places is crazy. My foot gets so sore but it's worth getting my retail therapy urge fulfilled. Spent like a bomb, omg. All my IPP allowance is almost spent.

Shits. 1200 words of report, where to find my motivation! Tsk.


I'm missing my boy again. The boy that handed his heart to me. He's going for field camp tmr morning. I pray everything will be fine for him. Pls take care of yourself. I'll see you on Sat, my Dear. <3